everyone these days say that they "keep it 100" or "keep it real". the number 100 has always symbolized completion, but how can one keep it 100, if they aren't completely confident in themselves? how can someone be the "real deal" if they put up facades that mask their pain?
in life, people grow and mature, often times at different paces. some say that once they turned 30 the "light" came on and they saw things in a different aspect. well for me, my light was more like an interrogation light versus a 60 watt bulb. :) things that once consumed my time and attention, didn't seem all that important. people who i gravitated to, somehow lost their magnetism. one day i woke up and actually "WOKE UP". i felt liberated and trapped all at the same time. i felt i had the power to save the world, but possessed the fear of my own greatness all at once. and it felt great! for the first time in a longggg time i allowed myself to be...myself! i embraced all my faults, imperfections and mistakes and accepted the fact that THESE things are what make me who i am. and i love it! i love who i am. i love who i am not. i am okay with the fact that i still have more lessons to learn on this journey. but the beauty of it all is IN the learning.
this is where i knew i could make that journey to define who karen is. this is where i took that first step to reach one hundred.
